Strange Day

Just got back from Sunday Mass; I love going to church here, it's so much better than back home. Father Mike has a certain serenity and calmness about him that appeals greatly to the younger generation and even to those a little older than us college kids.

Had a very strange day today; woke up late, for starters, which really wasn't a major problem. I know I was hungry enough to eat a million cows, but I'm not sure if I actually had any breakfast. I went to Walmart for some groceries that I've been meaning to get; and of course, I forgot the same thing I've been forgetting all week long: sheet suspenders! I guess I'll have to go again tomorrow or something.

Nothing else to report. Homework tonight. :/

~Louie

Sleepy Thursday

Had trouble staying up throughout my classes today. I woke up earlier than I should have without realizing it, so I forced myself to get up without needing to. It wasn't that big of a deal, in any case.

Got all my homework done for tomorrow at work; there were hardly any students when I went to work today, which was nice, but I'm starting to get worried I won't be needed any more. (This is not likely to happen; I'm a great tutor).

Going to Jon's again tonight. Amber's class was canceled tomorrow, so she decided to go back home early (it seems like she's acting on whims more often than before). Jon and I are likely to work on some homework (not exactly, ha!) and then play some Halo 3!

That will do for today. Goodnight,

~Louie

Week 4

Been a while since I've posted; surprisingly, there's very little to say at this point. On one hand, my boyfriend and I broke up last Tuesday. It was a tough decision, but it had to be done. All I'll say I say is that I should have let him down a little easier and given a little more thought into the situation. Nonetheless, this breakup was not solely my fault, but I'm not the type to blame others, so I'll leave it at that.

School's been going without a hitch. Mon., Wed. and Fridays I have Thermodynamics with Dr. P and Aerodynamics with Dr. Sh. They look rather promising and are definitely going to occupy the bulk of my attention, though not necessarily of my homework time (that may or may not make sense later). Dr. P is somewhat of a jerk and thinks he's better than the rest of the world, however; that's something I'll have to learn to tolerate. Dr. Sh is typically spoken of badly, but I like the guy. He has a small sense of humor, but that's enough for an Engineering professor. Today, we we were talking about absolute pressure and someone asked a question related to that and he answered, "Absolutely!" Ha, ha! (This may not seem funny in a few days).

Tuesdays and Thursdays I have Physics, Engineering Analysis, and Orbital Mechanics. Now, these classes seem easy but are taking most of my time when it comes to homework. Physics is a push-over and Dr. H is somewhat awkward at times. Homework's online and that's never a good thing. Engr Analysis is with Dr. Sev; he's my favorite so far. He's down to Earth, has a great accent (Russian, but not too pronounced), and is rather handsome. Anyway, he assigns boat-loads of homework and it's taking me at least three hours per assignment, which is long for me. And Orbital Mech with Dr. B is gonna be hard. I'm having trouble following him because he lecture at a million words per second and it's a tough subject. But the homework has helped, even if's taking another three hours per assignment.

Work has been fantastic. My schedule is not as fantastic as the work itself, but it was the only way to get 20 hrs a week. I work as a tutor at our community college. We haven't been having too many students, which leaves lots of room to do my own homework, ha! For the record, two of the tutors are hot! Gus is amazingly cute in his skater-ish-wanna-be sort of way; and Jacob is just good looking and super smart, which is a turn-on. That's all I'll say on that matter for now.

Went to a meeting today for Habit for Humanity, which Brian hosted. He looked all professional, hosting a meeting. Ha ha! Anyway, Amber was going to go with me, but she had class around the same time (evening classes have got to suck). We met back up afterward and went to the gym (Amber, Jon and I) for the first time in ages; God, I missed the gym. Went to their place after taking a quick shower; just back actually (and finished this post).

This guy, Tim, was texting me while I was at Jon and Amber's place. I used to like Tim, but after I found out that he's actually a lot older than he looks, I've sort of backed of. Anyway, I'm pretty sure he's straight anyway. But he sent me a random and purposeless text and he had a short conversation, which I think ended because I scared him off or something (I sound a little too gay in text messages some times... oh well).

That's about all I have to say really. This weekend should be fun; if everything happens like planned, I'll write about it afterward. With that, goodnight.

~Louie

Back to School

School's been going great so far. Been in school for two days, and we already have a three-day weekend! I suppose they do that for the kids that live in the dorm and apartments; just in case you forgot something back home, even though we had a little over a month to pack it all up. But don't get me wrong, I don't mind this at all :)

Been hanging out with Jon a lot these last two days. Jon's an old friend from high school, but we've never really been this close. I suppose it's because he's finally moving here to our college town. He's moved in with my best friend, Amber, who I'm pissed off at the moment. Yes, yes I am. We planned a ski trip a while back and had most of the details ironed out. In the meantime, she's been going up to the ski resort and dating this instructor guy who somehow knows her family (her family knows a lot of people, believe me). Anyway, she decided to ditch us for this guy and she attempted to dress it up... It's hard to explain, and I'm not necessarily angry anymore, so why bother? In any case, this will all blow over and we'll all be friends again.

Brian and Allison (Brian was my roommate last semester) wanted to host a game-night this weekend, and I haven't received word from them, so I'm starting to wonder what's going to happen. Jon and I already made plans to watch the Colts game tomorrow (Jon's an insane Colts fan!). I myself prefer college sports over pro (go Oklahoma SOONERS!). This will be fun, I know it. I know so because there will be booze, and Jon and I are hilarious when we're drunk. :)

Eric, my boyfriend, is coming over tonight. I discovered how to set up my TV tuner on my laptop using Windows Media Center today, and "The Lake House" is airing later tonight. Sandra Bullock stars in that movie of course, and Eric is a huge fan of hers; needless to say, we'll only be watching the first half of the movie before... well, you know ;)

He surprised me yesterday, actually (while we're on subject). I made dinner for us last night, and we attempted to watch a DVD. My laptop failed at reading the disk, so we watched a movie on my hard-drive: "Crash" (again, with Sandra Bullock; boy, I was lucky). Anyway, we were making out on my bed, and I was under the impression that we would not be doing anything special (special meaning sexual, in this case) because it was a school night, etc. So, when he starts taking clothes off, I'm thinking "Well, we gotta sleep naked anyway, right?" Anyway, one thing leads to another and suddenly I find myself asking, "You sure you want me to go in there?" He says yes, and we have amazing sex for the first time! And that's great, 'cause oral was getting old (and he's not that good at it anyway). And when I say, "My turn!" he tells me he's not a top. And I'm thinking, "Oh, Hell no!" To be perfectly honest, I consider myself to the top in the relationship; however, I still wanted a piece of the action!

He's coming over in less than an hour. With this new piece of information, I will be a little more outgoing with my bottom-boy; seeing as how he has more needs than me, I will be more than happy to indulge them... I probably won't be posting about my sex life; the only reason this story is here is more to share my disappointment at his lack of top-skills than to display my personal life.

In any case, this will be a good weekend. And I plan to enjoy it as much as possible. I have a few homework assignments that need to be done before Tuesday; those will likely be taken care of Sunday or Monday. That said, goodnight.

~Louie

Blogging Again

I started blogging about a year ago, but the interest died out slowly. It's a new year now, and I'd like to write my life down; not so much for other people to read, or to discover something about myself (I'm not trying to criticize anyone btw). It's more for a personal reason: I want to be able to look back, and see where I stood a month ago, two three, a year, etc. The last time I blogged, I met some truly incredible people, and that's something I'd like to do again.

Life has treated me pretty well these last nineteen years, and that's something I think goes unsaid for too many people. I mean, sure there were some downs, but I pulled through with the help of my friends. The most obvious one would have to be coming out; I was truly blessed with a group of friends who understood and (for lack of a better word) almost welcomed the idea of me being gay. That's not to say that it didn't come at a price: in the midst of it all, I ended up losing my best friend. To this day, I'm not sure if it was because I didn't tell him myself or simply because I was gay. At first it seems easy to blame it on his prejudice, but I think he felt betrayed by my silence. In the end, I was only trying to protect him. But what's done is done, and I can't look back now.

My family has been with me; admittedly, not through the roughest parts. But the thing about growing up Catholic is that: being gay is not an option. And for the longest time, I held to that belief as well. I must be honest and say that it almost worked. I found a very pretty lady, and for the longest time, I though I had her. But instead of taking the relationship road, she cruised over to the "You're like a brother to me" road; that was when she broke my heart. And to this day, she's my best friend, and I hope she always will be.

Its hard to find something you've already found... I mean, is there such as thing as a soulmate in this world? Do you get the a second One? That was my dilemma back in the day. And so I turned to that thing that was hiding inside of me, the thing that had been suppressed for so long. And so on November 9th, 2009, I came out to a friend. And it spread like wildfire - good wildfire, mind you. It was controlled and manipulated so that it reached certain people at proper times.

Prior to that, I had met and dated a great guy behind everyone's back. Sadly, things didn't work out between the two of us, as he was still in high school and I was a freshman in college. However, something good did come out those ashes: I accidentally outed myself to my then-roommate, now-great-friend. Granted, it was absolutely terrifying, but he accepted quite rapidly. And our relationship as roommates took a great turn to for the better; that's not to say we didn't get along before, we simply got along better. I think he secretly wants to meet every single type of person... don't ask me why. He is, after all, a very strange but amazing friend.

Life has granted another opportunity into another person's heart. For the last two months now, I've been seeing someone very special to me. It's been an official relationship since December 2nd. That's according to him... I'm clearly the "guy" in the relationship, and forgot our one-month anniversary. In earnest, that's something I'm working on. He's a really great guy, though: talented in what he does, passionate about being gay (you can tell by way he dresses), and amazing in bed. Pardon the openness; it is, after all, a mature audience that will read this anyway.

There's so many things I'd like to talk about, so many opinions to register. Not necessarily to gather a following; in fact, that would be a very undesirable outcome. I suppose they will have to be written as they come up in my life. For now, let me describe my life at this moment:

I'm sitting in my on-campus apartment. It's my first night back from winter break, and I must honestly say that I'm terrified to be back, even though I adore school. This building makes noises, you see. In any case, classes start Thursday. I'm an Aerospace and Mechanical Engineering major (totally not gay, huh?), and this is now my fourth semester of college. I'll be submerging myself into Aerodynamics, Thermodynamics, Engineering Analysis, Orbital Mechanics, and Physics. My new roommate also arrived this evening; we don't get along nearly as well as I did with my old roommate. But we respect each other and each other's space. It was good to see him, and I hope our relationships improves over this semester.

I must also report that a bit of a writer - not a good one, I must add. I'm currently working on a script of sorts. And I will periodically post posts regarding that. And with that, I sign off. I expect to make regular posts for the next few days; they will diminish in frequency as things heat up in school. But no fear: I'm here to stay. Goodnight,

~Louie